Between the years 2021 and 2023 God spoke to me many times. One time God said,
"I dare you to unwrap the gifts of the secrets unknown." "No God!, I don't wanna share any secrets." "I don't want you to share any secrets, I want to share secrets with you."
"Whew! Oh, okay because I am not ready to share anymore secrets, especially not that one."
A welcoming ambiance, permeating the atmosphere with the aroma of simmering chocolates and strawberries. As a melody of reverence and aawww strumb the keys to my heart.
leaning into my new found love. Snuggling in front of a warm fire, coming in out a cold stormy night. In the biggest wine glass possible, toasting to the vibe of hot chocolate wine.
The dopest Romance Novel written by my all time favorite Author Wahida Clark, "Every Thug Needs A Lady, Thug Series, left me longing for a love so true. Roz and Trae I'll bet you two still together and still gangsta. I gotta catch up. I never did find a love like yours, but I did find a love of my own.
Melting in the arms of my new found love. I became real cozy with HIM. HE starts whispering sweet nothings in my ears. True Story.
Now that we relaxing and chilln, I hear the Lord finally speak on the matter that burdened my heart the most. Back in 2021, in the beginning of my journey, my for real for real journey this time, I was a weed smoking, wine drinking, twerking kinda woman. I let God know from the start. "Uhm God, this right here gon be the thorn in my side because I love me some weed and I love me some twerking.
One night I was chiln like I do. Candles illuminating, Bruno Mars crooning and adding to my vibe. I got my blunt in one hand, a glass of wine.
Meanwhile, holding my thumb on the spark wheel of the lighter, I was ready to get lit! Suddenly I felt conviction. I asked God while holding the lighter in my right hand and a blunt in my left hand, ready to blaze, "God, what will people say if they knew? As a matter of fact God, what do You say? Am I dishonoring You by doing this? If I am just say so because the last thing I want to do is dishonor You."
I knew God was in the room with me. I could feel his tenderness and I know He's going to answer me. Knowing this, I looked up and over my right shoulder and I see the Spirit of the Lord. It wasn't the weed y'all. I hadn't sparked up yet. We look one another directly in the eyes. I didn't see flaming eyes of fire and I didn;t see white wool hair. I didn't see Him wearing Roman sandals and I didn't see Him wearing a woolen tunic. What I saw with my very own eyes was, kindness, and love. I could see and I could feel that there was absolutely no judgment. I was at ease. I was at peace. I could be honest with Him. I felt safe with Him. I was not ashamed at all. I calmly waited with anticipation for His response.
Finally, He said "I still love you," then He paused, my ears pricked. I sensed how precious pups and dogs feel when their tails are wagging with excitement and anticipation. A few seconds later He said, " I'll still use you." I put the blunt and the lighter down and I began to cry. I was overwhelmed with God's love.
I couldn't wait to get past this incredible moment. An encounter with God and I gotta blunt and a bottle of wine. Imma bout to get lit lit! Guilt free!
OMG! Conviction is not from God! Redemption is from God!
YES I'M SHOUTING IT !!!
After the moments passed, I picked up my blunt, I picked up the lighter. I put my thumb on that spark wheel, I blazed that blunt and I got lifted.
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